18 days to xmas!!

currently playing ; the christmas song - justin bieber ;D
hey everyone!!!

haven't seen u all in ages;D how are ya bythewayy? well, this is my senior-year in my school.. well, am looking for IB schools around jakarta, any suggestions?

AND YEAAAAH it's november already!!!! i can't wait for x-mas tho ;p

well thank God i get through those tough years :D:D:D but yeah my scores aren't good enough.. but still, I'M SO GRATEFUL!!!

"Chestnuts roasting on an open fire,
Jack Frost nipping on your nose,
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir,
And folks dressed up like Eskimos.

Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe,
Help to make the season bright.
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow,
Will find it hard to sleep tonight."

GOTCHA

NO! I didn't even make my hair short. (If I did, I would've killed myself) I made my hair look more like 'V' at the back. Well, been thinking to cut my hair like that. What do you think?

what a life..

No one needs me. Yea. Exactly, no one needs me. I'm only a fat girl who doesn't even have a talent. My math scores suck, my science also, my social studies too.. well, I'm not worth to breath. I'm like the laziest person alive, everyone keeps on judging me. My (ex) best friends left me alone. My parents love to compare me to someone else. I hate being me. Why do I have to be myself? I want to be just like them. I want to be as smart as them, as diligent as them, as beautiful as them. Oh God, why don't you answer my prayers? I know You'll always give me the best, but why do I have them? The ones who bring me down, who push me hard. I need You, I need Your wise advances, I need You to heal me, I need You to change me to be a better person. I need You, capital J-E-S-U-S.

Untuk Kamu, Orang Yang Slama Ini Bikin Aku Kesemsem

Untuk kamu,
Orang yang slama ini bikin aku kesemsem.

Hai. Aku kesel deh sama aku, iya sama kamu. Cowo yang bikin aku nunggu 3 tahun ini, cowo yang bikin aku pengen jambak laptop pas liat kamu ngerubah bio twitter kamu jadi : @.....'s. Kamu tau gak, dalam 3 tahun ini kamu tuh udah punya berpuluh-puluh pacar sementara aku jomblo ngenes kayak pocong. Nungguin kamu buat nyapa aku. Nyapa aku aja.

Kamu tau gak? Dulu aku slalu nangis kalo denger lagu yellownya coldplay. Aduuuhhh ababil bgt deh, tapi gak stuju juga sih kalo dibilang ababil, cintaku sama kamu gk labil kok hahaahah. Kamu tau gak sih? Tiap hari tuh aku liatin profile twitter kamu, mau liat kamu nge tweet apa, aku juga ngeliatin contact kamu mulu di bbm. Berharap suatu saat ada biru2 tebel-tebel gitu yang berarti kamu nyapa aku. HEHEHEH^o^

Kamu inget gak apa panggilan aku untuk kamu pertama kali? Inget waktu kamu nyuruh aku sms kamu? Nomornya sampe sekarang masih aku save loh di HP mamaku :D Kaget? Hahahah.. Walaupun aku tau kamu udah ganti nomor, tapi yaaaa kenangan 3 tahun yang lalu lah. Kenangan ngobrol sama kamu, kenangan di curhatin sama kamu. Kamu tau gak sih rasanya waktu akhir-akhir ini kamu curhat sama kamu? Gila men!!! Walaupun sakit hati kayak ditendang monster terus hanyut ke sungai dimakan ikan paus abis itu mendarat di pulau terpencil di Afrika, rasanya tetep nyenengin, karna kamu chat sama aku, dan kamu masih percaya sama aku.

Kamu tau gak sih rasanya kaya aku gimana? Nano-nano gitu deh. Manis waktu kamu sapa, asem waktu liat kamu pacaran, asin kalo tau kamu suka sama orang lain huhuhuhuhu. Coba aku bisa oprasi plastik kaya Kristen Stewart, pasti kamu langsung ngejar-ngejar aku deh. Kalo disuruh milih antara kamu sama Robert Pattinson, aku pasti bakal milih kamu kok (yakaliiii Robert Patinson mau sama gue-_-) Kamu tau gak sih? Tiap hari aku bikin lope lope letter gituuu dulu untuk kamyuuu. Aku pikir gak selama ini tapi ya Tuhan berkehendak lain -_- ujung-ujungnya juga kamu. Kamyu. Kamyu. Kamyu. Haduuuh, bisa gak sih kamu stop gentayangan di otakku yang kecil ini?

Kalo bisa aja, aku pengen banget deh sehari nuker diri jadi cewe yang kamu suka. Rasain gimana di bbm kamu, di telfon kamu, di peluk kamu, di......................... ya banyak deh! Sehari aja. Supaya tu cewe bisa ngerasain gimana sehari jadi aku, yang nangis mulu, yang patah hati dalam waktu 3 tahun, supaya dia nggak nyia-nyiain kamu nantinya.

Makasih ya udah gentayangan kaya hantu di otak kamu, makasih udah jalan-jalan di darahku dan makasih udah masuk ke sel-sel aku.

Dari orang desperate.

JJJJJAAAAAAYYYYY CHHHHHOUUUU!!!

me love youuuu so fucking fricking flipping much and ur new album ; "the era"

I voted for Jay Chou in the 2011 @TIME 100 poll. Cast your vote http://ti.me/eWNDYA #TIME100

NO ONE WILL EVERRRRR EVERRRRRR REPLACE YOU

wo ai ni, oxoxo<3

:b

A THING I'D LYK TO DO RYT THS SECOND IS.....

PUNCH HER straight IN THE FACE AND SAY
"IM WAYYYY BETTER THAN YOU FOR HIM!"

blablabla.....

i know it's a day too late (this is 3 : 06 AM, btw) but still, MERRY CHRISTMAS FOR THOSE WHO STAND THEIR LIFE FOR JESUS CHRIST. May the joy of christmas brings you peace. Jesus bless you!

well, i have my wishes for santa this year..

the first thing is, i hope i could be more close to God,

and the second thing - fifth thing, i want to be blessed, i want all i want,

and "maybe" the last thing, i want you.

by the way, ive got a lovestruck with bambang pamungkas these dayss!!

he's a footballer of indonesia's national team,

DEAR JESUS, SANTA, DEERS, AND EVERYBODY. PLSPLSPLS LET ME GO WATCH THE FINALE OF AFF, DECEMBER 29! PLSPLSPLS I JUST WANT TO WATCH BAMBANG PAMUNGKAS, I'M TERRIBLY IN LOVE WITH HIM!!!

this is a picture of him!!!

alright, i gotta go

bye everyone,

have a wonderful christmas-holiday-season!